Loneliness

I never knew what loneliness was
Until she left me in a lurch.
It all happened within seconds,
Before I could recognize she had vanished.

Each moment without her
Appeared like abyss;
I awoke trembling in my slumber,
As she flashed before my eyes.

I can't help my eyes pricking
Each time I think of her.
Tears percolate as spring
Though it has been months since her departure.

The most powerful weapon, death,
Took her away from me;
She returned to the earth
Leaving me lonely.

How will I see her again?
How will I ever talk to her?
She had decomposed in the terrain,
Leaving me in misery and displeasure.

She is not my sibling or my love,
She is not my mother,
But to whose love I always bow,
She is my guardian angel, my God mother.

She raised me as her own daughter,
With endless love and care;
How will I ever forget her?
How will I show her my honor?

"True love never demands
Anything in return"
This is what I had learned
From my loving guardian.

Dedicated to my Grandmother 

Letter to Paradise

Where did you go leaving me behind? Did you want to see me cry and commode?
When I am yet awake, how could you go to sleep?
Why did you love me so much that makes me weep?
Why did you feed me with love and mirth,
Till today from the day of my birth?
Why did you go to slumber
Leaving me behind that was ought to be remembered?
How will I forget you?
Where will I go in search of you?
Give me a solution to bind us again.
Hug me as wind from heaven and kiss me as rain;
Love me as the sunshine
And gleam over me as the full moon.
Let us never depart this way.
We shall meet each other every day.
Strengthen me by blessing me from the paradise,
So that I will not bereave your demise.
Give your soul to the fetus in my womb,
I shall pay you my debt growing you up as heavenly cherub.
Dedicated to my God mother.

Rebirth

As I entwine in your arms,
I feel more serene and ease,
As though I live in a paradise
Made only for both of us.

I feel like hovering over
The bed of roses,
When you lie closer;
Which is the best part of my essence.

I feel more queenly and angelic
As I envision myself in your eyes.
I would say, I am the most felicific,
Most fortuitous woman in the Universe.

For, amidst all beautiful maiden
You have chose me to be your spouse.
And as you shower your love each moment,
At once I rejuvenate in your fondness.

I fall for you more and more
With each and every day.
I am reborn each day in your amour,
With love as the only thing to repay.

The Bond

I never knew if we have an adherence,
A stronger bond, yet gossamer slim,
Despite two decades of difference
We have met because of the mishap of time.
I am in love with your two-foot height,
With your flabby arms,
With your tiny, pink feet
And immaculate, pure eyes.
The more you are afar,
The more I am enticed towardly;
The more is my fervor,
Intense as whirlpool in a briny.
Yet, I am clueless of the ardor towards ye,
I am still zealous to hold and embrace you, juvenile.
For you have bewitched me,
And I am addicted to your toothless smile.

Dedicated to little Jeshurun 

The Moonflower

I had always thought that I was a wilted floweret
With no roots to bear the sunshine.
I was unaware of my own self and was despondent,
Forlorn, low-spirited with none to abstain.
One fine day, as though the full moon shone,
You coruscated over me and the moment I apprehended,
That I was a moon flower, exclusive and lone;
Made only to unfurl for you, born for you, my Overlord.

Dedicated to my beloved..

The Mother In Me

I never believed in love at first sight until I saw him.
He was taking a siesta when I saw him for the first time,
Peacefully sleeping without knowing how many admirers he had.
He might have known if he had opened his eyes for a tad.
He was dressed in Citron colored fabric,
And I felt my heart skipping a beat from being rhythmic.
I held out my hand to reach his cheek,
Which twitched before I could give him a peck.
And I stood stealing glance at his face, moon-alike,
That shone brightly among all the swarming public.
I awaited for a week to see him, by and by,
The one that stole my heart within the blink of an eye.
The day arrived, and I saw him dressed in pink,
Same as the color of his chubby cheeks.
And for the first time, I carried him in my arm;
He placed his chin on my shoulder, gentle and warm.
The fragrance of his baby soft disheveled hair
Proliferated all around in the air.
Our eyes met as he delivered his toothless smirk,
And he let oodles of his spittle gleek.
With a burdened heart I handed him over to his mother,
And I felt a rush of emotions inside me, a shake, a wuther.
My anticipations to see that little brat again, is still the same;
Nowadays I am seeing a mother in me, inside this young dame.

Dedicated to little boy Jeshurun.

The Temptation

I am trying to desist admiring and thinking of thee,
But the moment I backtrack  thou haunt me with tons of thy memory,
That like a thunderbolt hit me intensely.
The smile of thine makes the whole world around me completely fuzzy,
And insists me to stay with thee.
I devote the moments thou spent with me.
At some corner of my heart, safe will be my zeal for ye.
Let it stay inside my heart as a secret beauty.
For thou will know or apprehend how much I crave thee.
And thou inhold wee little eyes that only looks but wouldn't see me.
But, with all my soul I adore thee ardently,
Despite the fact that thou could never be with me.
At least in my next life, let the grace of God grant thou as my progeny;
Yet, my desire, my passion for thou will be till the eternity.

Dedicated to baby boy Jeshurun. 

THE SOVEREIGN OF MY HEART

The love that I had been aspiring
All my life has turned to be you;
In you I have found the essence of my being;
Because of you, I am born anew.

The great wall that I had built
Around my heart is broken.
For your charismatic smile did melt
All the fret and angst I had kenned.

I do not know how to explain
The love I have for thee.
You have enthroned as Sovereign
Over my soul, my core, my entity.

I will teach the sweetest Philomels
To sing of you, my flame.
All the blossoms on the Terra will effloresce
As they hear the birds spell your name.

I perceive my own reflection,
The genuine me when I see thee;
The image that seeps through my quintessence,
And runs in me as my vitality.

I adore you more and more with each passing day,
That even if the moon turns red,
Or the sun turns grey,
My piety and love for you will never fade.

My love for you is as depth as the ocean,
That you would never find the coast.
My love for you is as the blue welkin,
That would never be creased.

As much as the stars in the Universe,
So countless is my love for you.
And I would clash the whole earth with the seas
To let you know how fervently I love you.

My love for you is like a pearl in the oyster, 
Puzzling at the beginning  hard to be conceived.
But once I'd known the greatness of my emperor - 
Exalted as a precious pearl in the oyster, 
I'm gratified  honored and proud of the reward I've received - "You!"

Dedicated to my most beloved  my dearest. 

The Veridical Gratification

Doctor Faustus, what do you think will suffice a man?
His wealth, his fame, or being surrounded by young women?
Will a man be contented
With the talents and wealth that he does inhold?

What will satisfy the humans?
A Palace full of diamonds and gold coins?
A kiss from Helen of Troy?
Or Mephistopheles as their pageboy?

Do you know where does the legitimate content comes from?
It comes only from the God, the most supreme.
For, he satisfies our soul with the goodness of the earth
And crowns us with his grace and mirth.

The everlasting God reigns forever,
Sempiternal is his glory and power;
To those who run unto his feather,
He will be the greatest refuge and unending shelter.

He sees all the men from his throne.
Nobody, nothing can hide us from his vision.
He is maker of all earth and heaven,
The almighty, the redeemer, the most holy one.

He consoles the wounded, grieving heart,
And mends the soul that is torn apart.
The righteous will rise, and as eagles will they soar;
They will rule the world, and as lions will they roar.

He delivers the ones who repent
And pours water on the people who are athirst.
Obey and follow the Lord, for, he will increase your honor,
Restore your soul with wisdom and will make you prosper.

Joy comes to the ones who seek him;
He is mighty to deliver us from the depth of the sins.
He lifts his beloved ones and enthrones them,
And fulfills the desires of their heart with abundance.

Repent your sins before the evil days commence,
For, the day of the man are like languid grass.
To those who fear him, he is compassionate.
His loving kindness is everlasting and incessant.

Remember your creator in the days of your youth;
For, the reward of sin is only death.
The covenant with Lucifer is horrific and terrible;
Doctor  Faustus, he will take you to the everlasting fire, the hell.

Inspired from Christopher Marlowe's "Doctor Faustus"

Love at my Lawn

As fiery as the rising sun,
You bloom in your own realm;
Each as royal as Queen
Clothed with excellence and charm,
With the loveliness of yellow and brown-
And with imperial elegance, each day you blossom;
As regal and tender as linen,
So is your simulacrum.
Your beauty shines at the break of dawn
And veils itself while the sun goes gloom.
Why don't you sprout at my garden?
Why don't you reveal your grace at my home?
My house is not as huge as a mansion
Or as sacred as a sacellum.
But, my little home will become shrine
If you would grow at my teeny farm.
I will adore you at my lawn
Each day and night, constantly, all the time.
While you reveal and conceal your lure that is divine,
Sunflowers, I will worship the way you blossom.

My Little Doll

I love it when your golden cheeks
Blush pink as I carry you in my arms.
So delicate is your touch as dew on the rose;
The flowers will secrete nectar at the slightest touch of your tiny fingers.
And will bloom as you display your immaculate smiles;
Will they adore you stringing together as garlands
And dress you up with their fragrance.
I adore the way you slumber in peace,
When the whole world around you rever your presence.
I never knew that I was fond of toddlers
Unless I envisioned your toothless simpers.
I cherish those moments over and over now, in your absence. 

AN ASPECT OF THE DIVINE

A million folds on her primitive face;
Each of her hair light and pearly;
Her green eyes gauzy and transpicuous;
She yielded a glance delicately.

From a single peek of her,
Percolated a myriad of words;
Unuttered, yet full of tenor;
Profound, fervid, deep and intense.

She stooped as she traipsed,
Because of her hunched spine.
She paused for a while and glimpsed,
And delivered me an innocent grin.

I stayed immobile where I stood,
As her smile pervaded into my heart.
It was something, rich, rare and unrivaled;
A smile I never bumped into in my past.

She held her hand out asking mine,
I stretched out my palm as response.
She clasped it, uttering locution;
And blessed me holding tightly my manus.

I remained all agog astonishedly.
For there teemed a hundred humanity,
Who came to that church routinely.
However, she didn't bless anyone, but me.

Why did she beatify me?
A girl she neither came across;
The one she never talked to ante;
I resemble her daughter or grandgirl, perhaps.

Or did she listen to my prayers?
Is she psychic or abstruse?
Can she behear my soul of souls?
Is she bestowing me my wishes?

Nonetheless, I have never happened on
Such a woman, amicable and warm-hearted.
She consecrated me and trailed from the shrine;
I stared at her till she petered out from my sight.

I felt like seeing God in her pretense,
Came down to the earth to bequeath me a reward.
For there had been none for me all these days,
And I had put all my trust on the almighty God.

A Place Called Paradise

I was a plutocrat,
Well-heeled, kind and generous.
My wealth was replete
And I was so magnanimous.

I was so compassionate
And had been a philanthropist.
To anyone that did supplicate,
I never said no, not in the slightest.

I was a good son to my parents,
I revered them a lot.
And a good husband to my spouse;
To her, I was true and allegiant.

Towards my beloved little angels
I was great and perfect;
Educated them fair and well,
Both in academy and in cult.

Apropos of my laborers,
I was benevolent and humane.
I cared them and their genre
And provided them precondition.

Above all, I trusted God
In all my vicissitudes
And I never contradicted
His law and his commands.

Wherefore, when I did ebb,
I was taken to the paradise
By a holy being - a cherub;
Because of my comity and rightness.

As I sauntered into the abode,
I beheld people dresses in immaculate white.
They seemed to be splendid,
Sanctified and flawless in sight.

While I went by the dwelling,
I perceived a man, more glorious,
More resplendent than the remaining;
Like the brightest star in the cosmos.

I inquired God about the comrade,
And why he appeared so godly.
His reply was poignant and grand,
That I felt quite lousy of me personally.

The man was neither rich nor opulent.
He had none for him - no family.
Au contraire, he was destitute,
Homeless and begged for money.

One cold night the weather was terrible.
So, he lent his only blanket to another homeless;
He got frozen by the temperature, too brutal.
He saved the man's life by giving up his.

We all contribute 'from' what we possess.
But, he had bestowed what he 'had'
Another Good Samaritan from the universe,
Whereupon, now he is in the blessed land.

Let love be without hypocrisy.
Let us give with whole heart and benignity.
For he who shows mercy
Will be crowned in the eternity.

Inspired from a story told by my uncle.