Find Me

Where will you find me
If I run away in agony,
Hiding all my pain,
Of missing you again?

Where will you find me?
Behind the gallows tree,
Singing songs of melancholy,
And swinging in the tree?

Where will you find me?
In the deep blue sea,
Swimming across a channel,
Or mithing behind a hill?

Do you think I would fly,
Into the moonlit sky,
Moving from you afar,
Concealing behind a star?

How will I flee,
Leaving you lonely,
Despite our loyal vows,
Despite our virtuous love?

Where will you find me?
Seek me in your glee;
I will be dancing in delight,
In the joy of my dearest.

Find me in your sorrow,
I will comfort you in your woe;
Find me in your pride,
For I will be your glorious coronet.

Find me in your angst,
I will strengthen your heart;
Find me beneath your lovely soul,
For that is where I truly dwell.

Love me, love me!

Love me in the times of my felicity,
When I sing in joy and party.
Love me in my fury,
When I am wild and sassy.
Love me in my fright,
When the world around me seems eerie and aberrant.
Love me when in disgust,
As I loathe and detest.
Love me when I'm grief-stricken,
Bereaving in despair and pain.
Love me all through my lifespan;
Love me unconditionally without exception;
For I had been through all these,
Intermixed all my days.
Yet, I love you to the core
With truth, vehemence and vigour;
I will love you forever,
To the eternity with fervor.

Empty Heart

What is it
That I live for?
For wealth, wit - or
For the sake of amour?

Who do I
Live for?
As a night sky
Without a star.

Life seems emptier
And incomplete
Without my lover
Who is my twilight.

I seek you
All day and night
In all my woe
And my delight.

I am a desert
With just a mirage
Of joy and content
Concealing the image.

I am just a nobody
Without you,
Void and empty
Without my beau.

Appraisal of Love

How shall I gauge my love for ye,
Compare it with the length of the sky,
With the depth of the sea,
Or with the tenderness of the apple of my eye?

Each time I embrace you,
I feel the love flourishing inside,
Oozing from my soul anew,
Flowing all through my body and mind.

As is the nectar in the flower,
So are you and I;
Preordained to be together,
As long as we survive.

A day without you is more
Like walking through the Hades.
I will love you forevermore,
Until my breath fades.

Loneliness

I never knew what loneliness was
Until she left me in a lurch.
It all happened within seconds,
Before I could recognize she had vanished.

Each moment without her
Appeared like abyss;
I awoke trembling in my slumber,
As she flashed before my eyes.

I can't help my eyes pricking
Each time I think of her.
Tears percolate as spring
Though it has been months since her departure.

The most powerful weapon, death,
Took her away from me;
She returned to the earth
Leaving me lonely.

How will I see her again?
How will I ever talk to her?
She had decomposed in the terrain,
Leaving me in misery and displeasure.

She is not my sibling or my love,
She is not my mother,
But to whose love I always bow,
She is my guardian angel, my God mother.

She raised me as her own daughter,
With endless love and care;
How will I ever forget her?
How will I show her my honor?

"True love never demands
Anything in return"
This is what I had learned
From my loving guardian.

Dedicated to my Grandmother 

Letter to Paradise

Where did you go leaving me behind? Did you want to see me cry and commode?
When I am yet awake, how could you go to sleep?
Why did you love me so much that makes me weep?
Why did you feed me with love and mirth,
Till today from the day of my birth?
Why did you go to slumber
Leaving me behind that was ought to be remembered?
How will I forget you?
Where will I go in search of you?
Give me a solution to bind us again.
Hug me as wind from heaven and kiss me as rain;
Love me as the sunshine
And gleam over me as the full moon.
Let us never depart this way.
We shall meet each other every day.
Strengthen me by blessing me from the paradise,
So that I will not bereave your demise.
Give your soul to the fetus in my womb,
I shall pay you my debt growing you up as heavenly cherub.
Dedicated to my God mother.

Rebirth

As I entwine in your arms,
I feel more serene and ease,
As though I live in a paradise
Made only for both of us.

I feel like hovering over
The bed of roses,
When you lie closer;
Which is the best part of my essence.

I feel more queenly and angelic
As I envision myself in your eyes.
I would say, I am the most felicific,
Most fortuitous woman in the Universe.

For, amidst all beautiful maiden
You have chose me to be your spouse.
And as you shower your love each moment,
At once I rejuvenate in your fondness.

I fall for you more and more
With each and every day.
I am reborn each day in your amour,
With love as the only thing to repay.

The Bond

I never knew if we have an adherence,
A stronger bond, yet gossamer slim,
Despite two decades of difference
We have met because of the mishap of time.
I am in love with your two-foot height,
With your flabby arms,
With your tiny, pink feet
And immaculate, pure eyes.
The more you are afar,
The more I am enticed towardly;
The more is my fervor,
Intense as whirlpool in a briny.
Yet, I am clueless of the ardor towards ye,
I am still zealous to hold and embrace you, juvenile.
For you have bewitched me,
And I am addicted to your toothless smile.

Dedicated to little Jeshurun 

The Moonflower

I had always thought that I was a wilted floweret
With no roots to bear the sunshine.
I was unaware of my own self and was despondent,
Forlorn, low-spirited with none to abstain.
One fine day, as though the full moon shone,
You coruscated over me and the moment I apprehended,
That I was a moon flower, exclusive and lone;
Made only to unfurl for you, born for you, my Overlord.

Dedicated to my beloved..

The Mother In Me

I never believed in love at first sight until I saw him.
He was taking a siesta when I saw him for the first time,
Peacefully sleeping without knowing how many admirers he had.
He might have known if he had opened his eyes for a tad.
He was dressed in Citron colored fabric,
And I felt my heart skipping a beat from being rhythmic.
I held out my hand to reach his cheek,
Which twitched before I could give him a peck.
And I stood stealing glance at his face, moon-alike,
That shone brightly among all the swarming public.
I awaited for a week to see him, by and by,
The one that stole my heart within the blink of an eye.
The day arrived, and I saw him dressed in pink,
Same as the color of his chubby cheeks.
And for the first time, I carried him in my arm;
He placed his chin on my shoulder, gentle and warm.
The fragrance of his baby soft disheveled hair
Proliferated all around in the air.
Our eyes met as he delivered his toothless smirk,
And he let oodles of his spittle gleek.
With a burdened heart I handed him over to his mother,
And I felt a rush of emotions inside me, a shake, a wuther.
My anticipations to see that little brat again, is still the same;
Nowadays I am seeing a mother in me, inside this young dame.

Dedicated to little boy Jeshurun.

The Temptation

I am trying to desist admiring and thinking of thee,
But the moment I backtrack  thou haunt me with tons of thy memory,
That like a thunderbolt hit me intensely.
The smile of thine makes the whole world around me completely fuzzy,
And insists me to stay with thee.
I devote the moments thou spent with me.
At some corner of my heart, safe will be my zeal for ye.
Let it stay inside my heart as a secret beauty.
For thou will know or apprehend how much I crave thee.
And thou inhold wee little eyes that only looks but wouldn't see me.
But, with all my soul I adore thee ardently,
Despite the fact that thou could never be with me.
At least in my next life, let the grace of God grant thou as my progeny;
Yet, my desire, my passion for thou will be till the eternity.

Dedicated to baby boy Jeshurun. 

THE SOVEREIGN OF MY HEART

The love that I had been aspiring
All my life has turned to be you;
In you I have found the essence of my being;
Because of you, I am born anew.

The great wall that I had built
Around my heart is broken.
For your charismatic smile did melt
All the fret and angst I had kenned.

I do not know how to explain
The love I have for thee.
You have enthroned as Sovereign
Over my soul, my core, my entity.

I will teach the sweetest Philomels
To sing of you, my flame.
All the blossoms on the Terra will effloresce
As they hear the birds spell your name.

I perceive my own reflection,
The genuine me when I see thee;
The image that seeps through my quintessence,
And runs in me as my vitality.

I adore you more and more with each passing day,
That even if the moon turns red,
Or the sun turns grey,
My piety and love for you will never fade.

My love for you is as depth as the ocean,
That you would never find the coast.
My love for you is as the blue welkin,
That would never be creased.

As much as the stars in the Universe,
So countless is my love for you.
And I would clash the whole earth with the seas
To let you know how fervently I love you.

My love for you is like a pearl in the oyster, 
Puzzling at the beginning  hard to be conceived.
But once I'd known the greatness of my emperor - 
Exalted as a precious pearl in the oyster, 
I'm gratified  honored and proud of the reward I've received - "You!"

Dedicated to my most beloved  my dearest. 

The Veridical Gratification

Doctor Faustus, what do you think will suffice a man?
His wealth, his fame, or being surrounded by young women?
Will a man be contented
With the talents and wealth that he does inhold?

What will satisfy the humans?
A Palace full of diamonds and gold coins?
A kiss from Helen of Troy?
Or Mephistopheles as their pageboy?

Do you know where does the legitimate content comes from?
It comes only from the God, the most supreme.
For, he satisfies our soul with the goodness of the earth
And crowns us with his grace and mirth.

The everlasting God reigns forever,
Sempiternal is his glory and power;
To those who run unto his feather,
He will be the greatest refuge and unending shelter.

He sees all the men from his throne.
Nobody, nothing can hide us from his vision.
He is maker of all earth and heaven,
The almighty, the redeemer, the most holy one.

He consoles the wounded, grieving heart,
And mends the soul that is torn apart.
The righteous will rise, and as eagles will they soar;
They will rule the world, and as lions will they roar.

He delivers the ones who repent
And pours water on the people who are athirst.
Obey and follow the Lord, for, he will increase your honor,
Restore your soul with wisdom and will make you prosper.

Joy comes to the ones who seek him;
He is mighty to deliver us from the depth of the sins.
He lifts his beloved ones and enthrones them,
And fulfills the desires of their heart with abundance.

Repent your sins before the evil days commence,
For, the day of the man are like languid grass.
To those who fear him, he is compassionate.
His loving kindness is everlasting and incessant.

Remember your creator in the days of your youth;
For, the reward of sin is only death.
The covenant with Lucifer is horrific and terrible;
Doctor  Faustus, he will take you to the everlasting fire, the hell.

Inspired from Christopher Marlowe's "Doctor Faustus"